When the twin moons fade along
with the night sky and the distant sun rises, he stirs. He has slept
well--dreamless and comforted within the confines of his dwelling.
His home is nestled within the cover of sand dunes.
It is but a shelter of palm leaves and wasted bush leaves he has woven himself. He climbs out to breathe in the tangy breeze. Soon
he will climb atop the dunes to stand and gaze at the only world he knows. The
only world he has ever known.
It is a timeless place—his world, his life. So
little is known—so much is desired.
He makes his way up the sandy rise with
difficulty. His legs trouble him and his tail. Climbing painfully, he
eventually reaches the top. The shore is beautiful--silken and half wet. It
gleams in the muted light of a crimson dawn. A sea vast and seemingly unending
stretches toward the horizon.
The sea is life to him, for it carries within it
gifts of food--small winged crabs—and little horned fish.
He always finds them; they’re always there when
his stomach pains him. But thirst now, for his throat is parched.
He gazes around and picks up a hollow--an empty
shell of a vegetable he has already eaten. He takes the hollow and turns away from the beach.
His destination is a great lake—perhaps as big as the sea.
It supports some life. Massive heads appear
regularly far from the shore. They frighten him, for they stare at him for long
periods before disappearing into the purple waters below. He looks for them now, but they are not there. So
he kneels down, scooping the water into his vessel. When it is quite full he
gulps it down.
Relief.
Once he saw his reflection in the still water—and
he studied it. He had at first thought it was another being. He had hoped it
was another being. But when he reached out to touch it, he saw it was merely a
reflection.
He has felt his face many times since then. He
doesn’t know that the hard ridges he feels are actually small bones. All he
knows is he has felt them. He had been pleased to see himself—it was like
having company. But then it saddened him to know he was really alone. The desire to see his reflection has passed now.
He makes his way down to the beach—for hunger is the next need to satisfy. The shore is littered with food for him. Crouching, he eats--slowly and carefully—using his claws to remove bits of horn or poisonous wing. He has found over time that only the flesh of the sea creatures is edible.
He makes his way down to the beach—for hunger is the next need to satisfy. The shore is littered with food for him. Crouching, he eats--slowly and carefully—using his claws to remove bits of horn or poisonous wing. He has found over time that only the flesh of the sea creatures is edible.
His satisfaction is brief.
When his needs are satisfied, the questions begin.
Why?
Sometimes he questions where he is and where he
came from. He has no memory of a before, since it often seems to him that he
has been in this place forever. At least he is comfortable. He suffers
not--neither heat nor cold.
There is hardly a sun—only a sweetly smelling dawn
which fades into a quiet twilight—quickly—perhaps too quickly. Night follows
along with all-embracing darkness—a comfortable, temperate dark.
The dark doesn’t trouble him. He enjoys the magic
it brings, for there is among its great opaque shadows, that which glitters.
Stars—bright lights—glittering happily, carelessly. They sometimes make him jealous.
He often gazes at
them—dreaming dreams even he cannot understand. But then the dark recedes and the light time comes
and the flyers along with it. They are great winged creatures, not from the
sea, but from the sky it seems.
He watches as they fly silently, gracefully
soaring and swooping down, they dine at the table of life—the bountiful sea
again. The flyers please him even though he is troubled
for he thinks they should sing. He’s never heard song—he only dreams of it in his
heart.
Sometimes he shakes his ears—trying to hear them,
but it’s no good. He can
hear some things—he can hear the wind blowing at night—the grass shifting in
the dunes—the sound of the surf.
But they are lonely sounds—and such sounds are not
music.
And there should be music.
His world is lonely—and his questions are many. What about tomorrow? Tomorrow has fear in it, for tomorrow might only
hold the long sleep from which there is no awakening.
When he is happy he mends his home and arranges
pretty pebbles all around to give it color.
Often he’ll stroll along the shore—gazing out
toward the horizon—thinking his thoughts—but not permitting any questions to
interfere, as questions often bring sadness and irresolution.
At twilight, he’ll head for the dunes to await the
dark.
And when his eyelids grow heavy and sleep beckons,
he’ll retreat to his humble home where he will dream.
Dreams often come to him, but like his life and
his existence, they are empty—reflecting only the world he knows.
He cries sometimes, for there is stirring within
him the need to change his life. I WANT—!
He can’t put the thing into words. All he can feel
is emptiness, like one of his hollows—a thing that needs filling.
But fill with what—water--or something else that also represents life?
On the last night of his existence in this world,
when the dark swept the light away, and he didn’t care to look up at the stars,
he tried to do something he had never done before. He wanted to sleep forever.
The sea was there waiting. It waited for him in
the deep blackness—with only the gentle light of the sky orbs to give its
presence away.
But death called him forth, so he deliberately
plunged into that black, wet forever dark. A rumble of thunder—a streak of
lightening were the only witnesses to his desperation. Dreamless, unending sleep—would surely be his.
But just as his body relaxed and his lungs began
to fill with water—a great wave spit him out. Flinging him far away—causing him
to wash up like any other flotsam.
And then, a thought came to him: I will live!
And so because of the thought and the simple
meaning he now understood to be his destiny, he woke up.
But his world was different. He was different. His face was smooth. He touched it with altered
digits. Gone, too, were his claws and his tail.
There were other changes too. The beach was gone
and the dunes along with it. Now he found himself in the midst of a great
forest. Great bushes reached up to the sky. Fully laden bushes—not like the
withered brown plant life the beach contained.
He wept with joy.
And there, gazing down at him were flyers—smaller
and wearing colors he had never seen.
But they were soundless, and because they were, he
nodded sadly to himself.
It just goes
on the same.
Suddenly something moved nearby. Clearly, he saw
the tall grass shift—first one way and then the other.
He ran. He kept on running until he saw it--a
frightened creature like himself. He froze and the creature stepped forward.
It was a woman.
He smiled even though he had never seen another
person before. He reached for her first--his altered hand, timid
and ready to be drawn back. She clasped it.
As they touched, the flybirds began to sing.
But he heard more than that. He heard more than
the wind too. There was so much abundant life around him—and it all had sound.
His world had really
changed. His existence completely transformed. A rich world—alive with
purpose had opened its soul to him.
And because he knew this was a good thing he
laughed and the woman laughed with him and their laughter was like music.
This, the first
Eden.
From FIRST
Copyright © 2011 Carole Gill
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Very Nice Carole.
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